Saturday, September 12, 2009
What am I doing here , at home , when I'm supposed to be out with Kenny ? Haih . Family problem once again . Haven't seen my parents ever since that night ! To prove they're actually alive is that I still receive money everyday and my brother went out with them last night . They stopped calling me , they didn't even wait for me to wake up today to go for lunch , no one woke me up yesterday to go to school , my brother drove me to school yesterday . . . Hmm . They probably didn't know about my stomach problem and how I ended up spending the night at the Kuching Specialist Hospital last night . Feels like we're falling apart >_<
I had this really weird feeling yesterday morning when I woke up for school , at 6:30am . I felt so alone , like everyone in the house was just avoiding me and I felt really transparent . When I called my maid , she didn't response ! HAIH . Went to school feeling so depressed , feeling dead .
Didn't want to wake up this morning but a call from darling woke me up . At least I know I'm still cared by someone ! I woke up to find an empty house with only my maid and Ruffles . My brother's not home , his girlfriend went to work , my parents . . . still haven't seen them !
Maybe I should sleep through dinner tonight and have dinner alone . Maybe I AM having dinner alone tonight .
I need the three of you so badly . Kenny , Esther , Jen , where the fuck are you guys ? T_T
FML .